Thursday, May 3, 2012
A while ago I found myself home alone. As guilty as I feel saying this, I was actually looking forward to the solitude. I relished in the idea of eating whatever I wanted to eat and not having to worry about cooking for everyone in the house. Although I was working on my Comprehensive Exam for my Masters, I still felt like my days will be free to myself. The day finally came when I dropped my two babies off at the airport and I couldn't really contain myself. I smiled and blasted music all the way home.
I got home and ate cereal (no need to cook) and watched whatever I wanted to watch on T.V. I then slept like a baby and woke up bright and early the next day. However, I noticed by Day 3, I missed the pitter- patter of feet running around the house and kept waiting for my husband's booming voice to fill up the crevices of our home. I realized that although I longed for solitude, my life had completely changed and that I was no longer the old Christine who was once single and disengaged. It seemed that there were parts of me, my husband and daughter, who were now elsewhere and I missed sharing my space with them.
When they finally returned, I realized just why I chose this life, with all it's messiness, challenges, compromise, and noise. It was my life.
Have you ever been suddenly left alone and how was your experience?