A while ago I found myself home alone. As guilty as I feel saying this, I was actually looking forward to the solitude. I relished in the idea of eating whatever I wanted to eat and not having to worry about cooking for everyone in the house. Although I was working on my Comprehensive Exam for my Masters, I still felt like my days will be free to myself. The day finally came when I dropped my two babies off at the airport and I couldn't really contain myself. I smiled and blasted music all the way home.
I got home and ate cereal (no need to cook) and watched whatever I wanted to watch on T.V. I then slept like a baby and woke up bright and early the next day. However, I noticed by Day 3, I missed the pitter- patter of feet running around the house and kept waiting for my husband's booming voice to fill up the crevices of our home. I realized that although I longed for solitude, my life had completely changed and that I was no longer the old Christine who was once single and disengaged. It seemed that there were parts of me, my husband and daughter, who were now elsewhere and I missed sharing my space with them.
When they finally returned, I realized just why I chose this life, with all it's messiness, challenges, compromise, and noise. It was my life.
Have you ever been suddenly left alone and how was your experience?
Christine
I only need a few hours of alone time and I am good. Maybe one full day but I would miss my family and I think I may even start talking to myself and that's not good lol
ReplyDeleteI didn't start talking to myself but the silence started to take a toll on me.
DeleteI don't know how I would react with alone time like this. There are days that I wish I could have an HOUR to myself and be selfish & not have to think about what anyone else needs. Sometimes I just want to go away alone & sleep for a weekend. But then I think about it & think I would miss them... I guess the world will never know. LOL
ReplyDeleteI guess it depends on how much of a break you need. By Day 3, solitude seemed overrated.
DeleteI think - somehow....I could manage. LOL
ReplyDeleteAisha... Can we send the guys somewhere with the girls???? Or better yet can WE leave them here & go somewhere?? Purely to test this theory out??? We obviously would get NO enjoyment in it whatsoever.
DeleteLOL - Actually my husband is pretty good about giving me space at times. I've been at home without them both and I've managed pretty well. Might be the whole only child who lived by themselves for years thing...
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